trying to conceive

No More Blogging

When I first started blogging about my trying to conceive journey it seemed like it would be helpful. Cathartic even. To be able to vent all my neurotic thoughts and have them out of my head. To have a place where I could rattle on about symptoms and blather on about the two week wait. [...]

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The Hide and Seek of Trying to Conceive

It’s that time of month again. The dreaded two week wait. It’s getting very, very boring. I try not to think about symptoms, but it’s my body and there they are. Kind of tough to ignore. But there’s never anything definitive in the two week wait, so if I do get any symptoms, it still [...]

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Another Month, Another Cycle

Month number seven. Seven cycles. And coming to the end of my favourite period of the month. The few weeks where I’m not thinking about symptoms. I try not to think about if of course, but that’s kind of seems like wishing the sun wouldn’t come up in the morning. So all I can really [...]

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Confidence vs Humility

It’s amazing how hard it is to say ‘I’m proud’ or ‘I’m good’ or even ‘I’m great’ without qualifying it in some way. As though, if I admit to it the universe will strike me down for my presumption. And if I don’t I risk the ridicule of others for being arrogant. And while humility, [...]

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Working Order

The day has arrived (a lot quicker than I thought it would). Tomorrow I go off to check that all my lady parts are in good working order. I’m still not sure what I’m hoping for. Would I like them to say nothing is wrong, everything is fine, trying to get pregnant just takes time? [...]

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Just The Two of Us

I believe I’ve gone through the five stages of grief during the last six months of trying to conceive: Denial every month when I convince myself that I am actually pregnant or when I try to convince myself that my period is implantation bleeding. Anger at myself, at Google, at complaining pregnant people (entirely irrational [...]

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Stop Crying Your Heart Out

*Title stolen appropriated from Oasis I was pretty sure this month was THE month. It wasn’t. I wish I had the ability to not care or take it in my stride. But mostly to not care. I don’t. I know that the best thing I could do for myself would be to relax about it. [...]

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Confessions of an Unpregnant Woman

The first time my husband and I decided we’d like to get pregnant, we decided to say goodbye to contraceptions ‘and see what happened’. I had no idea when I ovulated, I didn’t chart and we didn’t plan. When we got pregnant in our first month. This confirmed the theory that the first time you [...]

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