The Hide and Seek of Trying to Conceive

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It’s that time of month again. The dreaded two week wait. It’s getting very, very boring. I try not to think about symptoms, but it’s my body and there they are. Kind of tough to ignore. But there’s never anything definitive in the two week wait, so if I do get any symptoms, it still doesn’t mean anything. But still I can’t help it – constantly assessing tenderness, tiredness, food aversions – even hormonal pimples on my chin.

At the same time, I’m trying to prepare for the seemingly inevitable disappointment. And this is where things get really irrational. As though if I firmly believe that I am pregnant, or I hope for it, that the universe will slap me in the face with a big fat negative. Whenever I identify a new symptom, in my mind I try to come up with another reason why it might be there. All in the vain hope that I will be less disappointed by not raising my expectations.

A mere sampling of the neurosis:

Pregnant	Totally Not Pregnant
Exhaustion and excessive napping. But let’s be honest – can any amount of napping really be excessive?!	I am sleep deprived and have a 2 year old who doesn’t sleep through. I don’t technically get out of bed in the middle of the night – but it’s still broken sleep.
Breast tenderness, aching. And started about a week earlier than it would normally.	Happens every month with PMS. This month it’s just early. Oh joy! I love when PMS lasts for two weeks, period for one. Giving me a whole 10 days of non-symptoms. That’s living!
Can’t stomach real coffee. Now that’s just cruel!	Still drinking instant coffee. Hardly food aversion. Obviously just becoming weak in my old age
Mid to upper backache	Hello? Somebody spends all manner of hours hunched over a laptop computer

And really that’s just the tip of the iceberg.

Don’t mind me, I’ll just be here, hoping that things get a whole lot worse. When enduring the two week wait, getting worse is the only thing that makes me feel any better.

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http://www.etsy.com/shop/wingbysea michelle

I know what you mean, I keep hoping I’ll feel like I’ve been hit in my lower back with an axe, that coffee will smell revolting and wine will taste like dust. Fingers crossed!

http://goodgoog.com Zoey @ Good Goog

Exactly!! Bring on the grossness!

http://diapermonologues.com/ mrs.notouching

Here is for this getting worse, just not bad enough were you are on a bed rest and in a wheelchair while trying to take care of a toddler… but even then – it’s totally worth it. Sending pregnancy vibes your way.

http://goodgoog.com Zoey @ Good Goog

That must be so incredibly challenging. Toddlers are such balls of energy. Thank-you for the vibes!

http://ceaselesspraises.blogspot.com Carrie

Oh, I completely understand – I’m sorry your symptoms have been so bad! Natalie is 5 months old, still nursing full-time, and so we’re not ‘trying’, but we’re not NOT trying, and every day that I’m tired or feel icky anywhere near the morning, I’m thinking…ooh, AM I?…maybe… Praying that this will be your month!!!

http://goodgoog.com Zoey @ Good Goog

Thanks Carrie – didn’t realise you were ‘not not trying’. Good luck! I’ll be the same next time around – if this round takes the better part of 12 months – might as well get going early!

LisaNReynolds

All I can say is I’m conjuring up as many baby vibes as I can muster and sending them your way. I could say just try to relax and what will be will be, but that is far easier said than done, so I won’t! Will see you on Twitter and catch up with all the news there.

GOOD LUCK! X

http://goodgoog.com Zoey @ Good Goog

Thanks Lisa. I’ve been trying to focus on other things – sometimes I succeed, sometimes I don’t! I think the best thing for me to do at times like this is to really appreciate all the one-on-one time I have with Riley because (hopefully) this will be the only period of my life where I have just the one

http://www.helpmum.com.au Tenille

I know how you feel. During my last TWW I started to see a tiny bit of blood in my sinus mucus. Sounds disgusting I know, but I had that during my first pregnancy, so thought it could be a positive sign. TWW’s make you think ridiculous things…

http://goodgoog.com Zoey @ Good Goog

I was the same last month. I had a bad cold and was convinced that was a pregnancy sign because I’d had a similar one just before getting pregnant the last time. Completely irrational.

http://www.sparklingadventures.com Lauren

Two-week wait? Clearly you aren’t buying your pregnancy tests in bulk like I do! I think I wait five days and then test every two days after!

http://goodgoog.com Zoey @ Good Goog

I don’t think I’d be able to control myself if I bought tests in bulk! But from memory I think I tend to test positive a bit late. I don’t think I got a positive with Riley until I was 5 days passed my missed period. And as my cycle is like clockwork I try to avoid looking at negative tests at all costs!